tagged me- YAY!

ONE - Spell your name without vowels: lc G- 3 letters wowzers
TWO - Are you single? : i have a relationship with my monkey- and he is real damn it!
THREE - Whats your favorite number?: why would i have a favourite number? their Numbers damn it!
FOUR - What color do you wear most?: red i think
FIVE - Least favorite color?: i dunno, really i don't
SIX - Favorite candy?: i don't like cavities so i avoid them
SEVEN - What do you smoke?: your hair!
EIGHT - Are you happy with your life right now?: who is?
NINE - Anyone ever said you resemble a celebrity?: you on crack by any chance?
TEN - What -WAS- your favorite class in school?: artsy wartsy! (and biotech, that was interesting)
ELEVEN - Do you shop at hollister/DC/Bluenotes?: no i shop at thrift stores for the certifiably poor, me no spend money
TWELVE - How do you make money?: from work, duh!
THIRTEEN - Who is your best friend? : the monkey! THE MONKEY DAMNIT! I ALREADY SAID!
FOURTEEN - Where do you go to school?: somewhere in canada for engineering- its gonna be hellish!
FIFTEEN - Are you outgoing?: probably not- i like my little corners in life
SXTEEN - One word to describe you?: oblivious
SEVENTEEN - Favorite pair of shoes?: no, just no, okay who the heck came up with these questions, they look like they're desgined for shopiholics and ditzy teens!
NINETEEN - Where do you wish you were right now?: in rome, where you do as the romans do
TWENTY - What should you be doing right now?: drawing, i have so many WIP's
TWENTY ONE - Do you have a crush on anyone right now?:yes madam, on you're Mom.

HONEST SECTION:
Honestly, what's on your mind right now?: need to take a dump
Honestly, what are you doing right now?: writing this thing, what a silly question
Honestly, have you done something bad today?: i slept late...
Honestly, do you watch disney channel?: I don;t have it
Honestly, who is the last person you talked to on the phone?:crap, i can't remeber, OH wait, twas some chinese lady looking for my dad, no idea who she was
Honestly, are you jealous of someone right now?: you get jealous of everyone once in a while, its not like i think much about it though.
Honestly, what makes you mad most of the time?: when i don't get things done and get angsty about it. thats it really
Honestly, do you bite your nails?:nope
Honestly, do you want to see someone this very moment?: i wanna hang out with my buddies from Art class, they honestly made highschool fun and interestin
Honestly, are you keeping a big secret right now?: i'm not sure if its a secret
Honestly, do you have a friend you don’t actually like?: not really, theres always aspects of people you don't enjoy, but there's always much more aspects about them that you do, thats why you become friends with them in the first place.

THE CANS:
Can you blow a bubble?: O.O who can't
Can you dance?: naaah...
Can you do a cart wheel?:hehe, never could do a proper one
Can you tie a cherry stem with your mouth?: okay i had to google that, so no
Can you whistle?: wish i could, don't understand how
Can you wiggle your ears?: no ear muscles here alright?
Can you wiggle your nose?: noooo... i end up moving my lips
Can you roll your tongue?: yeah
Can you make a clover with your tongue?: nopie dope-i have no bodily skills sorry

ANGER SECTION:
What do you do when you’re mad?: grinding my teeth, i usually end up picking up a chore to do, and do it violently to get out the stress
What’s the worst thing you’ve done when you were mad?: kicked someone when they were vulnerable. that was one of the stupidest things i ever did.
Ever made anyone cry when you were mad?: jeezuz, i can't remeber, but i think i did before.

CRYING SECTION:
Ever really cried your heart out?: yup, it happens
Ever cried yourself to sleep?: yup- that too- how pathetic
Ever cried on your friend’s shoulder?: well not literally
Ever cried over the opposite sex?: No
Ever cried over the same sex?: Yup
Do you cry when you get an injury?: when its really painful
Do certain songs make you cry?:i think there was one when i was a kid, had a total cry fest with a friend because we missed home. i can't think of one now
Do certain movies make you cry?: yeah, i'm always a sucker during the movie, i disect it and diss it afterwards


HAPPY SECTION:
Are you usually a happy person?: i'm the clueless one who remains fairly content. i'll get hyper and be loud when i'm excited. so i guess yeah, am a happy person C:
What makes you the happiest?: Friends, family, making progress, creating pictures, churning out a good piece of writing.
Does being with your friends make you happy?: always
Do you believe in yourself?: sometimes- most times it seems like a delusion to do so, but i tell myself i can cause its defintly better then the other option.
Do you wish you were happier?: kinda, but kinda not aswell, i'd be preety content if i died as i am now.
Can music make you happy?: yeah, good music does that

LOVE SECTION:
How many times have you actually had your heart broken?: once for sure, i'm not sure if it counts though
Have you ever loved someone so much that you’d die for them?: not sure, really
Has anyone besides your friends and family ever said ‘I love you’?: without the literal sense! god this tweenage crap is getting unbearable, i feel like i'm at a slumber party with strangers and we're playing truth or dare.

HATE SECTION:
Do you actually hate anyone?: not now
Have you ever been on a hit list?: what the heck is that?
Are you a mean bully?: Yeah... i'm actually quite a bitch a lot of times

not gonna tag anyone because this was a really silly questionaire. its not so much as that its childish that its bothering me, but that its cliche kinda nosy questions is annoying, don't know how many people think the same way haha

P.S
updates: i'm more behind on that pic then before, i don't even have the enthusiasim to work on it anymore.

i have however started new things again, god i get so easily distracted:
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[link] <-- fairly proud of this one, i never got paintes brushes to work so well for me

Slightly older WIP's:
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[link] <-- a stab at colouring manga, never did this before
[link] <-- more rog! this one was started in painter, i'll be working on this between painter and photoshop- if i ever get the inspiration to start again

its not done

and now i'm going to washington DC tomorrow

i wanna bring my tablet and work on it on the vacation
but its not gonna happen

Damn

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sorry just felt like fessing up
now i have no idea when it will be done

here's a little WIP at 100%:

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P.S. sorry for being depressing aswell- i'm waaaayyy too moody and emo lately- which is very very bad

see you in a week
i'll tell you about USA when i'm back :3

i really hate this time of the year- where its near the end of high school.
this whole year has been an unproductive drag as some of you might have seen in my posting habits this year. And that is a result of a huge number of things, i really apologize for that.

Mainly one of the problems is balancing school expectations, desires to do stuff in art, and picking universities and application. Applying for Waterloo in Architecture was possibly one of the best and worst moves i've ever made, it really shook me to the core and it still does. In general I've been feeling bad because i haven't been successful at any of the things i listed above. like everything in life right now is just one expectation after another that i just can't accomplish even though other people are managing to do the balancing act of life and I'm not.its pissed me off, frustrated me to no end, and still I'm wasting my time doing meaningless things when theres stuff like art and school work that i could do.

I'm hoping it will get better for the summer but i'm not sure- rather i've been stuck in this state of doing absolutely nothing forever- and i'm starting to feel like i'm never going to get out of my vegetative state.

and i'm still wondering how i will get out of it.

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a while ago some random magician guy was paid to make a live performance at my school, i didn't like him very much. he had this corny story about how he became a magician that i can barely remeber, and judging by the lack of enthusiasm he had for the whole performance, it sounded very much made up. he did say one thing about his story- it was that he wrote down his life goals and showed it to someone else and it helped him accomplish it.

i've heard that same kind of advice from other supposable spokes people who are to educate us teens. So i thought a little while ago- hell, might as well try it, can't hurt me to do that.

and now i'm going to try agian- even though the past few attempts at motivating myself by writing it down has not worked.

i want to get this picture done soon:
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it was originally for the Wacome contest on the 19th and obviously that failed. i set a goal for myself to get it in, and wrote it down as well,showed it to my folks, but it didn't get me better time managing skills. only the temporary motivation to do something that was lost in other priorities.

but i;ll set another goal, cause if i'm gonna call myself an artist ( amature or uneducated), i have to keep doing this until i get something

i want this done by the end of my exam week in June 26.

thanks for reading this sorry for bothering everyone with my complaints. i'm writhing this now because i think i need to learn to speak when i feel shitty, and talk about it like a real person instead of ignoring it. i've done that too long and i don't think its been any good either.
now to write that essay

i hope you all have a better day

singularly the funniest thing i ever saw:

smoker's nightmare

for more pictures and info on my trip (that unfortunately will not be as funny) go here:
CLICK ME

bit of spam for you all:
I've been tagged by:
go check out his gallery- it needs more love and if you don't i'll hunt you down like the little worms you are

1-POST THESE RULES IN YOUR JOURNAL.
2-EACH TAGGED PERSON MUST POST 8 FACTS ABOUT THEM SELVES IN THEIR JOURNAL.
3-AT THE END, YOU MUST TAG 8 PEOPLE AND POST THEIR ICONS IN YOUR SAME JOURNAL.
4-GO TO THEIR PAGE AND SEND THEM A MESSAGE THAT THEY HAVE BEEN TAGGED.
6- NO TAG-BACKS.

1. i have broken my arm at age four and have a centipede like scar to prove it

2. i am a landed chinese canadian citizen and have not visited back home in 10 years ( i want to though)

3. i own a guitar ( unfortunately I've never had enough motivation to learn completely how to play it)

4. i'm currently learning how to drive ( even though i think cars are metal death traps)

5.I've eaten chicken heart, pigs tongue, congealed pig's blood, cow stomach. (which is a relatively limited pallet for a Chinese) i will probably try more in the future

6.I've dropped a coffee pot filled with coffee and managed to not break it ( a stoke of luck seeing as a broke over 5 other pots before and I've lost track of how many by now)

7. I moved around 4 times in the same town for reasons only god know's why

8. My most prized possession is the music box you see in my ID


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